I'm a teenager, almost finishing secondary school. But I know that school isn't the problem. I'm sure of it. And maybe it’s to do with hormones, puberty and all of that nonsense but what I'm going through is bad. I don't care what caused it, I don't if I've had a bad past, to me that doesn't matter. What matters to me is how I am feeling at this moment in time and no can see it when each moment it gets worse and worse. I am telling you, my esteemed audience, that I was happy, I would be so bubbly, I never loved life to the extent of being ecstatic but it was good. But ever since I was a child I would store my "issues" at the back of my mind and would not care of it and wouldn’t deal with it. And after a long period of time I would just deal with it. And that’s what I’m doing now, but I have never knew that what I kept holding in and hiding away was so big that I would just break. It’s like I haven’t gone to the stage where I sort things out and I don’t think I will after a long time. I just think that I’ve broken down with everything that is going on and I am so grateful of this forum. Because another issue is I can’t express and personally the reason I’m not doing so is because I’m scared with what I say, I’ll be judged and they won’t take me seriously so to keep away from that I just shut away, but this time I think it’s too big for me to handle so I need to express what it is and HealthUnlocked has helped me with that. This has helped me and to me esteemed audience I am sorry for the bore but be prepared for more boredom for I have not finished.