Any guidance would be appreciated. For a few months now I've went for a bubbly confident young lady with a good social life too ... A girl that barley socialises and when I do I begin to feel sick and panicked and have to go home. I've also had very little trust in people and am very paranoid I either sleep constantly or don't sleep at all I constantly think I'm better not here I feel like am in some black whole I'm unable to escape and no one understands. I feel so down and can't seem to pull my self together no matter how hard I'm trying I have sucidal thoughts often and have attempted harming my self. I feel like I'm a burden on everyone I've never been so sad in all my life I'm normally so happy and cheering everyone else up but now it's just a fake smile hiding away from the world with no help I can't control my emotion and can't see to get the voices out of my head. It's really taking its tole on my relationship and I can't explain because it's to hard and they wouldn't understand.