I feel like I don't have a right to have the feelings which I have. I have a very stressful job and have had an unlucky year. But the feelings that I am having are not new I've been having them for years and recently my own thoughts have scared me. I think about how life is so tough, just everyday little struggles (never mind the bigger issues) and sometimes I feel like I am not a strong enough person to live forever. I feel like when Im alone I am a different person to who I am when I am with people. I complete despair, sometimes for no reason at all. I know I have a life that so many people would love to have, but I just can't be happy. The constant feeling of fear and panic cause me to break down emotionally at small things and I feel like no one else will understand. Even when Im feeling good for a while I feel like the bad feelings are just below me like a pool of sharks waiting to drag me under. I know I need to visit my GP but I don't know what to say to them to make them understand. I don't look sick, I look like a normal happy person, but inside there is a constant struggle. I don't know how to help myself, even writing this I feel like I am being dramatic.... or stupid. What can I do?