So....I kind of... hurt myself? Not seriously or with a blade or anything, and it wasn't even like I was that upset at the time or anything; I was fairly coherent actually, but I was in the kitchen, and this was a couple of weeks back now, and there was a knife - not a particularly sharp one, just your bog standard knife that you eat with, and kind of ran it over the back (?) - the bit that's not the understide - of my arm a few times. No more than three or four times, and not particularly deeply, just kind of light scratches. It's just...I don't know why I did it, and I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and kind of wanting to do it again, not to properly hurt myself or when I'm particularly distressed or anything, but I just...don't know why it was a thing.
Maybe it's just me not understanding properly the nature behind things like this. In my mind I've got the stereotypical blades, on the wrist etc thing, and it's definintely not that, and I wouldn't class it as that, it's just... I don't really know really.
If people have questions, I'll answer them, I just don't know how to really express this properly/