Hi Everyone, this is my first post just felt like a needed a bit of support. Currently lying in my bed not wanting to get out and slightly disappointed I woke up in the first place. Ive been on citalaprom for 5 years but can't never seem to learn. I went out with the boyfriends family to a family friends party and stupidly drank too much and then decided to hop in the taxi with everyone going to town leaving my boyfriend behind! So yesterday I woke up having lost my phone just wanting to die really. I hate myself and the stupid decisions I make, I can't drink the same amount of alcohol so why do I try and think I know by now i'm not your average 23 year old! I also have parts of night I can't remember, which I never cope well with, Im making up scenarios like "what If i cheated" even though I love my boyfriend more than anything, he's my rock and don't know what i'd do without him. I just feel like i've made such a fool out of myself in front of his family, I feel like I can't cope with this and how am I meant live with this embarrassment with his family?