I can't find anything to love about myself. The people whom I love can't find anything about me to love too. I love my parents, but all they do is criticise me. Everything I do, think and feel is bad and wrong. I love my brother, but he only cares about himself and his fiancé. I love my ex, but he loves someone else now. I let my ex become my entire world and have no friends left.
All these factors make me hate myself even more and every day I ask myself why I'm still here.
All I want is for someone to love me for me. It's really lonely being me.
At the same time though, I'm very tired of going through the ritual of opening myself up, meeting new people, building relationships.
I'm not sure if there are others who feel the way I do, and if there are, I just want to let you know that I get you, how tired you must be, and I love you.