I don't usual sum up the courage to write and deploy my troubles and emotion via text....but enough is enough!! I must express to you that for the past 6 years now I have been abusing laxatives. At first, I would take 2 laxative pills after I had eaten anything and keep a strict myfitnesspal.com diary of whatever I ate under certain calories a day to loose weight.
I continued with this for a while and in effect, I did loose some weight, noticeable to friends and family. Then I went from taking 20 laxative pills a day to one 40-60 laxative pills a day. I have had complaints from my parents even sister to add a bit of weight that I don't need to be so slim. But now am getting ok the lowest I have been being 44kg at 5'4 27 ears old now 28 I weighed myself and am like 50-51kg.
My problem is I can't seem to give up on these laxatives because the days I try not to take them I can't do a poop and I feel bloated and resulted in trying to throw up if I felt I ate too much. Five days at most I went without taking any laxatives before bed and I felt heavy and bloated and uncomfortable, leading me to go back into taking laxatives on a daily basis just to feel light and have that empty feeling, thus maintaining my slimness.
What do I do? Do I want to be able to be how I was before all this laxative no sense, because I can't seem to go poop without laxatives? what do i do any advice? or anybody who went through a similar experience and overcame it...how pls?