I am usually the life and soul of the party but recently I have been quiet shy and unable to express my thoughts and feelings properly. I cry constantly, I snap at people. I over analyse everyone and everything I over analyse myself and my actions. What I'm not doing I don't feel like I'm going anywhere or accomplishing anything in my life. I feel as though my family and friends don't like me anymore. I force a smile when I'm not happy and haven't felt truly happy for ages. It was my 21st birthday the weekend just gone and I had a party I faked I was happy but I felt miserable the whole time. i have been writing a bit which I never do but it's all about people judging me and I feel angry at this but is it all in my head ? I feel as though everyone has changed around me but maybe it's just me. I feel like I am wasting time constantly but can't do anything about it as if I'm so frightened to get any older and waste my life with wrong decisions. I don't know what to do. I also never want to have sex i never feel sexual with my boyfriend and it's starting to show a strain as he thinks I dont want him, which to be honest recently I haven't really cared if he was around or not . I thought depression wasn't really a thing before this but am I depressed ?