Hi Guys and Gals,
first sorry I haven't been on here in awhile to respond to replies, and I so thank you for it. I'm gonna be brief; I made a breakthrough in therapy today that I've been ashamed to have people close to me because of me ashamed of myself. I've never been able to be on my own since I had my first place when I was 20. I'm now 36. I've also never been able to stay at a job because of fear. Fear as soon as I was met with a challenge, fear as soon as I wasn't able to stand up for myself. In my situation, I believe my depression and my pmdd diagnoses at 20,21 to present actually have nothing to do with it. I had a hard time with confidence at a VERY young age. Can you believe I still remember in kindergarten (1984), dealing with my first conflict of wanting to be these 2 girls friends(btw one is my Facebook friend ha) because something in me at that age told me they were challenging to befriend, and they did not want to play with me. And from there it just went downhill because that was my first school which I stayed at from k-6th grade. Those are very critical years and I lost a lot of self esteem and confidence. If it wasn't for me trusting in God, after all I've been through, I probably wouldn't of been here.
Wow I said I was gonna be brief but the moral of the story is I am now facing all my fears head on. YES I get anxiety taking the steps, YES I am afraid of failing, but I cannot live the rest of my life this way so I'm facing my fears.
I hope this was an encouraging situation for someone. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!