I feel like crying almost everyday now. I can't do anything I want to do because of it. It annoys and frustrates me that people just think I'm lazy. I feel like every day is worse than the one before but with each day I become better at faking happiness. My work is affected because I'm an absolute mess. Getting out of bed each morning is becoming increasingly hard and my motivation is becoming nonexistent. my mind can;t stay on one thing, it's constantly wandering, thinking about everything that is wrong and the harder I try to suppress those thoughts the harder they hit back at me. Then counsellors tell me to think positive as if it is as easy as flicking on a switch. If i could think positive then obviously I would be but each time my positive thinking circles on itself and turns negative. Worse of all I'm in a LDR which seriously at times just makes it all that worse. I feel like I'm destined to have my life a mess forever because right now I'm trying to do something about it but I can't picture the benefits.