I feel so alone and trapped into my own thoughts, I overthink every situation and it's usually for the worse and people keep telling me "think positive" I just think it's one of those saying that's easier said than done. It's one of those times where I'm not eating properly, I cry almost every night and again thinking the worst of the situation and I wake up in the middle of the night or early hours in the morning all sad and tearful like I don't want to get up and go into the outside world today, I just want to curl up in my bed and not face anyone. I've got to the point now where I'm scared, nervous and anxious about what's next for me and who else wants to push me down to make me feel every worse. I just want to be happy again but I'm very much far away from that point right now. I want people to listen to me and understand that behind the fake smile is an emotional teenage wreck of a girl. I give up and I really do.