Hi everyone, I read all your wonderful comments on my last post and really appreciate all of your time you took to stop and listen to me. It means the world to me.
I have previously spoke to my doctor, I have been in and out of a mental health hospital over the past year and have been in with my doctor since being diagnosed with ptsd, depression, anxiety and panic disorder at the start of this year.
I was medicated and have been on pills for the past year and they help with the anxiety but it's the depression I can't get under control. I have seen 8 councellors and therapists since 2012, spoken to my doctor and I am under a hospital as well.
I was so panicked about speaking to my doctor this morning because I haven't spoken to him much since getting in with a hospital but I think I just needed a rant and to have someone listen, it was scary and upsetting but I know these things are important to face as painful as it is.
I still feel dead lonely and upset, if not a little more after letting all my emotions out today.
It's been a very difficult time waking up and trying to get through each day and barely sleeping and when I do sleep I suffer with recurring nightmares.
All this pain just seems so over whelming and never ending lately, and I know things do get easier as time goes by and I will suffer with bad days but get good days too, it's just the past 6 weeks this pain seems never ending and I just want it to end. I'm at a loss right now, I don't know what to do anymore.
This post is probably very mixed up and all over the place but they are just little thoughts running through my mind after thinking back after today.