I was diagnosed with Borderline in 2000 after a nervous breakdown following a drug rape and another rape following since then I have been a volcano self harming suicidal attempts
My last attempt was Nov last year I have been trying hard to stay focused and have been trying cut down drinking found a hobby still have stood swings and borderline struggles but no scares.
I come form a violent home life and had a breakdown at the age of 12 also but it was not so recognised then it was my behaviour that made people realise something was not right
Recently I found my mother and brother have let a man back in there lives who
Had made sexual advances to me by touching me inappropriately around 2012/2013
he is a very disrespectful man to women has no boundaries.
At the time I told my family and they said the told him of at that point 3 months down the line they all fell out and he disappeared now recently mum starts talking about him saying he has invited her and my brother for dinner I told her I don't want to hear about him
Last week I poped over to my mums and she opened the door I walked in and he was sitting there she said she was giving him bible study as he is depressed
Something hit my gut I was stunned I left straight away
The next day I told her I feel disappointed she turned round and said I am just looking for an argument this happened three yrs ago I cannot believe you are behaving this way
She said I will not stop him from coming round as I am doing the Lords work so if you come round and he's there ignore him and you must learn to forgive
Well I was gobsmacked my mother knows what I have been through raped twice sexually assaulted by her cousin when I was 7 which she never listened to till I was 17
This time round she says I never told her this new person touched me I only said he was rude talking to me.not so I told her exactly what happened. I feel my mum has selective memory.
Since this new incident she has convinced my family and my sons that it was three yrs ago and she is doing Gods work and because they know she is passionate about her little church group it's like I'm at fault
By this I have been devastated I have been an emotional wreck I have felt suicidal for the past few days but have managed to have someone around and spoken with the crisis team it's like I have gone back a decade
Am I in the wrong am I blowing this out of proportion as my family believe.
My Sons are annoyed because I never told them when this occurred I did not want them to have any more upsets as they were young when I was first ill and it ruined their lives so my mum and my brother were they only two that knew until now
I'm planning to move away from my family as we a live close and start fresh
I suffer with Fybromyalga also so it's hard all around