To start things off - this is my first thread in this forum. I saw it and thought I could use it as a resource to get some advice. I'm Katy, I'm 20, working full time and going to college part time. I was officially diagnosed with severe depression at 14, and haven't received any treatment after diagnosis.
I'm struggling with balancing my responsibilities. Working by itself is manageable for me, but when school is added to the equation I begin to feel as if I'm drowning. All my days off from work are given to school, with no real free time. However, I force free time by being negligent on assignments and studying, and my grades are often poor. This creates another cycle of stress from falling behind, forcing me to cut my hours at work.
I live on my own with my boyfriend and a roommate who is a dear friend to us both. We equally split financial responsibility, and moving back into my parents isn't an option. I want to get my associates, but I'm constantly considering dropping out to give myself a break. However, everyone tells me I should drop hours at work, and put school first. I am an essential provider to us, and cutting hours at work would be detrimental.
My mental health is deteriorating by the day, and I feel as if I'm beginning to disassociate from myself and my obligations due to my long-term stress. I can't afford to see a professional as my insurance has changed and no longer allows me to pay for appointments or care.
I can't see it for myself and I just need to know what would be my best option?