I hate my life sometimes... The smallest things can make me feel horrible or cut myself. Like, when I was trying to ask for help online, someone just laughed at me and said, "Can you just die already?" Of course, out comes my knife. And when the teacher comes over and talks to me, my face goes red for NO REASON WHAT SOEVER! Very annoying... Sometimes I'll giggle and laugh. But my laughs last about a second or two.. And they don't even GRADUALLY go away. It's just from to :I . The worse thing is, my friends don't even care. They know, but it's more like they don't care. And yes, I have brought it up with mum. She never listens. I don't even talk to dad... My brother, he doesn't know. Funny thing is, he called me Batman once. Said I was "Emotionally unstable, likes to be alone and sits in dark corners all day" so... I guess he really HAS noticed. I'm tired of being alone. I can't even stand being away from those few teachers who care about me for the weekend. I stress and begin to think that nobody really cares and that they just ACT like they do. But, I also don't want to communicate either. I have quit soccer and I hardly eat anymore. I weigh about 60 kg and I occasionally walk to the beach. It's so calm there. I wish I was one with the waves. I wish I could just walk into the ocean and drift for all eternity.