It helps to see that other people are in the same boat. I moved away from my family and friends because my husband got a great job. I doing OK I made new friends and then we moved again. Now I am lacking the motivation to make new friends. I have a cleaning business, but I make little to no money. I push myself to go to school even though I have no idea what I want to do. I only go Cuz my husband wants me to go. I hate wasting money on me. I don't feel I deserve him. He really doesn't understand what I'm going through. I hate the daytime Cuz I have so much to do. I sleep way to long. I want to be normal. I'm tired of feeling this way. I notice the more i isolate myself the more panic attacks I have when I'm in social events. Plus I don't have health insurance till the end of next month. So I guess I have to wait till then to get therapy. Sorry for the ranting, but I don't know what else to do. I want to be a better wife. I want to be a better person.