Hello everyone, I'm new to this site - in fact I'm new to this completely! I'm just looking for people who are experiencing the same things as me. I feel that I'm in a bit of a rut and am not sure how to get out of it.
I've seen my GP and been off work for nearly 3 weeks now with depression. I've been prescribed an anti-depressant but do not really want to take it as I am on medication for migraines and it makes me so tired and lethargic. I thought that with a bit of time away from work that I would be able to fight it off, but I'm not sure that I am. I am due to go back to work at the end of next week but still do not feel ready, however I am feeling the pressure because I can't afford to take a cut in money due to me being off sick.
I have counselling arranged at my GP practice, but this is not until the middle of August.
Worrying about work and the need to go back to work due to money is not helping my situation. Some days I feel better than others but some days, like today, I just feel so tired and low. I want to get back to my normal self. I am a busy Mum of 4 (however only got 2 kids at home now and the youngest is 18) and I work full time and have to drive 40 miles a day to my job - which is not ideal. I'm trying to find a job nearer to home but that is easier said than done.
I'm not sure when I started feeling the way I do, but I think that it has been coming on gradually over the last few months. I used to love my job and I am a very conscientious worker and take pride in my work, but I seem to have lost interest in it and have no real desire to go back. I lost a work colleague in a road traffic accident a few months ago and I think that things started to go awry then. I also had a small bump in my car a few weeks ago and that was the last straw. I have been off sick since then.
I just feel lost at the moment and am not sure which direction to go in. I feel that I am going through the motions of every day life, but can't seem to engage in anything. Does any of this make sense to anybody?
Thank you for reading.