I am focusing on day to day at the moment , when i get up in the morning i write down 3 things that i am grateful for and they are on a post it above my computer to remind me life isn't that bad . I have decided to abstain from two things that have had serious consequences for me in my life, gambling and alcohol. Feeling hopeless , helpless and all the other crap that goes on is not helped by self medicating with alcohol or gambling to forget. It's like BACON AND EGGS- The chicken makes a little effort , but the pig makes a commitment if you know what i mean . M.