I have been trying to fight this for almost 4 years now, starting new life in new country was not even my choice but i had to. 4 years with no friends. trying to isolate myself more and more, not keeping in touch with family for no reason...(sometimes i can not understand myself).
I feel lonely most of times i tend to hurt myself as I enjoy the pain, I drink loads of alcohol.
Did not even register with GP and feel so scared to do so and to be honest i do not care anymore.
I have no interest in almost anything in life and nothing can make me happy.
Not sure why I am sharing this here but was not able to do that before and i just want to let it out.