I am 37 and have suffered with depression for 15 years. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 6 years ago. I am at the start of another episode although I never really ended the last one. I am under a lot of stress at the moment as my husband is currently charged with causing death by careless driving. He hit an old man while we were driving. The guy was crossing the road when he shouldn't have been and as our light went green and we turned right he was in my husbands blind spot and as we saw him we hit him. Our solicitor isn't sure that he would be successful if we tried to fight it due to other complications. She is currently asking for some expert help but if this comes back the same as what the prosecution say then we have no hope. At which point it would be best if he pled guilty as it will lessen the sentence and it may come out as a suspended sentence. Of course he could still end up in prison. I am at my wits end as he is my full time carer. I have mobility issues as well as under active thyroid and sleep apnoea on top of my bipolar disorder. All of this caused me to stupidly take an overdose early this year. I am being secretive around my family and not letting any of them know just how badly this is effecting me. I am talking to my professionals though so I am getting some support there. I guess mainly I need to offload to someone I don't know. It is easier for me this way as then I know someone is listening but I don't have to look at the faces of my family where I can see that they are not understanding me and my fears. They all know what the depression feels like as they have all suffered before but I am starting to suffer with anxiety on top of my highs and lows. I frequently feel like I can't cope and have no idea what I will do without my husband if he gets locked up.
Thanks for reading and letting me get this out