I know filthy habit but I want to discuss the monthly scourge only because it has become apparent to me that not only am I in excruciating pain but Ive lost my mind!
I read somewhere once that your ego is always trying to kill you, well I beg to differ I think its my period. Now just bare with me, because I want to know if others have the same experience.
First off I need to explain that due to the untold stress my ex BF put me under I actually stopped bleeding all together for about 3 months! However now we are apart it has re-appeared like a hole in the Aswan Dam! So maybe due to the severity, the emotions are worse than normal.
However how it starts is a week or so before, things niggle me, then near the time I get angry at everything and then the calm before the storm and the storm with a wave of pain appears! During this time waves of emotion take over my life....now here's the rub at some point I feel suicidal and as if there is no hope in my life anywhere.
So one of my questions is do you feel the same and those of you on the other side of the menopause do you feel less wavy? I do hope so.
So having worked out I feel suicidal, bad, depressed, weepy, needing a cuddle (something the BF never gave me even when I was with him...lol. so why I think I miss that now). Anyway I digress, luckily now I get a split second just before I plummet to the depths and take the cyanide pill, when a light switch comes on and says! "Stuff and nonsense it's all in your head!", Then I realise I only feel devastated, racked with worry and pain because of my flippin period and it WILL PASS.
Kind of begs the question how many women have commit suicide on their period!?
This is not to degrade depression or marginalise period pain but you have to admit this is pretty dangerous stuff, so if I feel bloody awful its no wonder!
So I suppose Im saying if this happens to you stop and keep reminding yourself even minute by minute it isn't real, it will pass. Ignore all the stupid thoughts that come into your head, weather the storm and believe!
Luckily Im not armed during this period... ha ha.
Sorry guys but honestly I do wish you could experience this just once and I think it would revolutionalise your attitude to women (well those who could do with an adjustment of attitude In all fairness they probably arent on this forum ...lol.
Computer says No to "revolutionalise" but it is late so I keeping it!