Good morning all,
Sometimes I gt out of bed and my new day begins in pain from my medical condition. It seems I am entering a flare and everything just seems to get on top of me as I suffer, pains in my, spine, neck legs and hips not forgetting my toes.
These flares do not just attack on area, they also effect other joints and areas of my body.
Late last week I started bleeding from my rear end and had to see the GP regarding that and now I have to go in for tests in hospital, so now I am on one big dose of anti-byiotics in case I suffer an infection. So I am really chuffed.
We had a lovely weekend on the Scottish Borders and had to come back early as we were to have work done around the house, although now we understand they cannot get the work done until Saturday, we were cursing as we could have had an extra day away. Although I would have suffered the flare when I was away and would have been unable to get back without a great deal of suffering.
Monday will again see us away visiting very good friends in Scotland, I dread the drive as it will be very much in pain throughout. Hazel cannot drive and have booked up a cottage and now have to go.
Coming home early gives us a whole dose of paperwork that we now feel obligated to do, as we had hoped to get all when we came back from Scotland. Now I am climbing the wall with pain and my reactive Depression is really kicking in and this is when I become sometimes at risk. Although I do not think I would travel down that route now I still become like a wounded bear and can be verbally strained and I upset all those around me and I get very unpleasant and that always worries me as I have no-one I can call regarding this as now I cope with my Chronic condition on my own.
It would seem that my medications have burnt my stomach lining with medications and I am unable to square the circle with my flare and bleeding, so I am totally at a loss.
So depression comes in many packages. Life is a bitch and a learning period so I will finish my mail and hopefully I will be able to rest by tonight, as my medical system weakens my immune system, hence the anti-biotics.