So I know what made me feel depressed for the first time.
When I was 16 I was in a relationship with a 25 year old. (large age gap)
It was rosey and amazing for 1 year until he started bullying me and being really horrible. Being really nasty and horrible to me for no reason at all. He made me feel worthless and inferior to everyone. He treated me like absolute crap and the things he would say to me were so horrible. He was quite jealous and posessive of me... put alot of pressure on me wanting to get married etc and I wasnt ready. He used to ruin my fun all the time and put me down constantly.
Before this I never experienced any depressive feelings AT ALL. I was probably the happiest most outgoing and confident young adult. Everything I put my hand to I would have a great experience from and I LOVED life.
After this experience thats when I started to feel worthless and inferior... I went through alot with what I was feeling and I had no idea what any of it was. I was nasty to the people closest to me and I got very judgemental of other people and what they were doing, got very jealous and insecure. Luckily I ended the relationship with this man because I felt like I wouldnt be here today if I didnt. I felt like I was locked in a cage and couldnt get out - so when I ended it with him I went abit off the rails and was going out alot with friends - I lost alot of weight... I was drinking alot and socializing alot. Thank god Im over that period of my life as I am alot better now!!
I still dont fully understand what happened here and why this happened. Sometimes I dont understand why this happened and for what reason- or exactly what happened. Has anyone else been through this?xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx