So basically. Since moving home from university. Ive felt like my friends have been few and far between - obviously leaving a big city with alot of people there meeting new people all the time to a small town - I still have friends in manc but obviously dont see them all the time anymore. I feel like my friends that I had before I went to University are here and we have spent some time together. But I dont feel like we have anything in common anymore... I find it really hard to make conversation with one of them and I feel like its a little awkward - not sure if its just because we've grown apart and if its natural.. or is it me? Obviously Ive looked up having depression and I know I dont have a really bad case of it... but it said something about people isolating themselves from people.... and Im worried that I might be doing that?
Litrally about 3 of my 'close friends' Ive felt like weve grown apart massively. MAINLY because I was the one making all the effort and now that Ive stopped making the effort with them........ they havent bothered getting in touch, so why should I make effort? This is part of my new way of thinking....... Putting ME first for once. I felt like I was running after everyone but I woke up the other day and realised I dont need anyone who doesnt need me... Your real friends make an effort and when you see them its great and you enjoy it! With alot of my 'friends' I felt like I was spending time with them for the sake of having 'friends'... but deep down they werent my real friends and they wouldnt have my back.
I dont think Im isolating myself but it just scared me a little because I do enjoy alone time... I love my alone time! Im with people and chatting all day everyday (My job is mostly on the phone) so I dont think I am but its just weird how Ive grown apart from 3 people I usually wouldnt spend time with?!?