It's the first of the year, and I've already had a mental breakdown and ended up back at square one. I've once again fell weak and self harmed. I dunno why I cannot stay clean! It's like I go months on end holding everything inside. Suppressing all my emotions and stress, then one day something triggers my feelings off and I crack! I cut my arms and cut my face. I banged my head and punched my face. I felt empty and broken. It's been 2 days since the ordeal and I'm still depressed. I feel horrible and I can't seem to pick myself up. I haven't taken a bath in 2 days. I think I might be pregnant and me and my ex stopped talking. I'm struggling with life in general...I feel alone, scared, and helpless.