I feel like I am fighting a losing battle. The few friends and family I have don't seem to understand how I'm feeling. I feel like they think I'm jus lazy and have a bad attitude. I spent most of my time on my own because I feel like everyone is bored of seeing me this way. I have no money and have lost two jobs due to my depression. I cry so much, cannot forcus on anything and constantly feel worried I'm going to mess everything up. I have tried cbt and one to one counselling but feel nothing works. I just want to feel like it will get better. Also I've been on so many different meds and after a while feel they don't help and I'm back to square one again. I feel like my life isn't worth living anymore.