I am a recent graduate with no job a.k.a unemployed for 6 months now.i have lost already 50% of 2014 being unproductive. I have applied for various jobs online and few offline and there is nothing. I am a born again christian and my life has not been bearing any fruit for the last 6 months. I feel like my life is barren and i have been having this voices in my head disturbing me and telling me how worthless i am and how unproductive i have been.
I feel lost because as the first born i have to be showing a good example and direction to my siblings but i am not doing so.
i feel lost and i don't know where to turn to plus i am broke and living at home with my parents hence depending on them.
i hate been dependent on them cause i burden them.
i have no faith left in me about my situation turning around and i have not been so Godly. I have disappointed both God and my parents with nothing to show out of my life. I feel really ugly and i don't know what to do and feel like my 6 months looking for a job has been nothing because i haven't depended on God 100% and all i do is pay for my pathetic mistakes.