Thank you to everyone who has replied to my posts. Made me realise yesterday was a bad day and it doesn't mean I have a bad life (or that I am bad). Feeling better today. I know another bad day is waiting for me, but I'll embrace it knowing that it will pass and I'll have some normality again (if only for a short while). I need to accept what I did, forgive myself and move on, because otherwise it only compounds my depression and makes me feel worthless. Living in the past and going over old regrets won't release your brain to heal itself. I had never thought of myself as ill, just weak and needy, but having someone point out that it is an illness means I can seek a cure (or at least improve my condition). Take care, xx.