I keep trying to post more frequently here but I just seem incapable of it because whenever I', "bad" I just don't seem to want to help myself, but I'll post as much as I can.
Anyway, I'm feeling kind of horrible today because last night I was told by a friend that my friends suicide was my fault. I have already blamed myself so much for this but being told by another person just makes it far more real. I'm trying to not be mad and think about the fact I'm going to a concert tonight but it's so difficult because what if it IS true? What if it is my fault. Because if that's true I really can't live with myself.