My husband left about 1 year ago, and 4 weeks ago I moved back in with my parents (i'm 33) I have never ever in my life felt so low, lonely, worthless, a failure, unhappy, and a burden. I had a very bad relationship with my husband and he used to say some very cruel and hurtful things to me which led to a sever lack of confidence and near enough eating disorder. Eventually after a huge row he left and moved back to his hometown. I stayed in our rented apartment and felt relieved that he had gone, and my eating improved. About 4 weeks ago I felt my body gave in. I broke down uncontrollably crying, and tried to take my own life. Since then ive moved out of the apartment as it was making me physically sick the thought of going back there, and have moved in with my parents. I feel they have become very snappy and short with me which has led me to feel they resent me being here and im a huge burden to them. I feel ive let my parents down and my family are disappointed in me. I feel so so so lonely, and have now got to the stage where I hate going to bed at night, knowing ill have these awful thoughts then cant face waking up in the morning if this is my life. I do not think I can go on anymore if this is what my future is destined to be like. Ive tried the positivity thing and read every self help/CBT book going, and im afraid when I feel like this, telling myself positive things is not happening! Is this it forever?
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