What does one have to do? Why does every thing go wrong all the time? You work all your life, you work hard, 70-100 hours per week, you get ill, your work gets rid of you.
Now still fighting the illness every day, 5 years of fighting, and still the world gives you all the crap, every day more and more. what ever I do nothing works out, is it just time to say enough is enough. Time to say goodnight to the world, I'm sure IT won't miss me.