Hi, i'm new here but really need some advice..
I'm a 20 year old girl and have had troubles with low mood and extremely low self esteem my whole life. I started self harming when I was 15 and continued until I was around 17. I first had counselling when my mum found out I was self harming and forced me to go, at this time I didn't know why I was self harming, I just felt so low all the time.
Skipping forward to about 2 years ago, I struggled with social anxiety for reasons i'm not sure of, I lost alot of friends and really struggled to do day to day tasks, my boyfriend said I needed to get help and I agreed. I got more counselling and although I felt like it was sort of helping, I never really felt like we were tackling my low mood and wondered if social anxiety was really the cause of feeling so low all the time. I stopped my counselling after a few months as I felt I was better.
Now about 6 months later, my anxiety is back with a force, I feel scared to do such normal tasks such as go to the supermarket, even with my partner. But this time it is the sadness I notice more, I struggle to get out of bed and cry all of the time.
Does anybody think this could be depression more than social anxiety? I'm really confused and unsure of what to do next. There are some days I am fine, happy and content and others I can't seem to think i'll ever feel ok again.
I am going to the doctors tonight to talk about this but I just wanted an opinion from somebody who maybe has felt the same way?
Sorry for the long post!!!