I trusted someone with something so precious and they have betrayed me in the worst way possible. I can't help it, I hope they suffer, I hope they don't experience a single night of peace or peace of mind.
I don't feel I warranted their betrayal and actually deserved the reverse. I rarely think this way and Im aware of human frailty, but this person has treated me as if I have no feelings and that my emotions are of no consequence. I shan't let them drive me down, or they will have won. They withdrew their right to my understanding and generosity, when they chose to treat me and my wishes as if they were of no consequence at all.
Thank you for letting me air my grievances but also I wanted to say to those like me, DON'T ever let ANYONE make you feel less than you are. Don't let them try and degrade your life, your values, stand up and say I have a RIGHT to be me and I am magnificent! People will push you around if you let them, they will try and take hold of your life and control it when they perceive they have lost control in their own lives. I am utterly disgusted!
The days ahead will be hard I know that and maybe I will concede to depression, but Im not going down without a fight and I will get back up again! I came into this world alone and I will leave alone and that will be my strength not someone else's non sensical idea that I'm available to be changed or controlled. I can't even begin to share my deep, deep disappointment, feel somethings are a basic human right.
Thank for letting me vent.