Haven't posted on here for a long time - but thought that for anyone who remembers me I would post an update.
Think the last post was around start of May when my GP tried to put me on anti-depressants rather than talk to me about the implications of my B12 Deficiency. Anyway, that resulted in me trying a nasal spray at high doses and that really seemed to work for me. Went from struggling to walk and balance to being quite comfortable perching at the top of a ladder pruning my grape-vine in just a couple of weeks.
Life is still quite stressful - mainly the job and just not being happy there anymore - but I would generally say that I was stressed rather than depressed - and the 3-4 days before a period can get really bad - certainly did last month. However, I'm actively looking for a new job now so just a question of waiting for the right thing to come along and selling myself properly ... don't want to go from frying pan to fire and I'm actually really bad at selling me so there's a bit of stress there as well.
I'm finding it a lot easier to be around other people and actually initiating conversations a lot more and find myself strongly suspecting that I've been suffering from the effects of B12 deficiency on the psychological level for many years which makes me sad that it seems to be a condition that GPs are unaware of on so many levels. The US equivalent of NICE has a section of it's website devoted to B12 and that starts with the banner headline that 1 in 31 of the population over the age of 51 will be suffering from a B12 deficiency, which to my mind makes it much more of a mainstream illness than the knowledge of GPs in the UK would suggest. Leaving aside autoimmune conditions that prevent absorption of B12 from the diet as you get older acid levels in the stomach change and that affects the absorption as well so as you get older the chances of developing a deficiency increase ... and that goes for so many vitamins.
I've been spending a lot more of my time on the PAS forum than this forum - very different - as tends to be about support in diagnosis and treatment than a place to share what is generally going on in your life and gain contact with people.
Cats are all well ... including the neighbour's cats who are siblings of mine and regularly come round to visit ... so getting through a lot of catfood. Have enjoyed counting butterflies and running over the summer ... and generally enjoyed playing bowls - helped by the weather having been much better than last year - at least until recently. Still meditating though not quite as regularly - certainly found it extremely useful when the anxiety got really bad a couple of weeks ago.
Anyway, hope everyone else is well.