I apologize if any of what follows makes little sense, this may be more of a train of thought.
I don't know what to do, I've been off for a few weeks now and have been doing fairly okay (Having just last week been at a after wedding do and some other stuff), but the I know that the transition between constant work and free time don't usually go down well with me.
I actually began to almost know the signs of when I'm going to go like this and usually try to cycle more and organize meeting up with some friends , however despite asking a week before I have had trouble getting all parties willing at the same time and frankly its frustrating. I realize that they are probably busy (In fact one gave me a reason) but I feel like I am going to have to starting to chase them around, I mean, am I not aloud to say 'Hey you wanna meetup on Tuesday?' and at least get a clear answer at some point in the future if not when I asked (Whether that yes or no).
I realize other people have things to do as well and sure life can be a bit busy, but at the same time this is really frustrating. I don't really know if what I have really are friends, sure I have one good mate who I see and talk to frequently, but the others I only really ever see when I try and organize something like this and being so busy usually that doesn't happen often.
Another thing is that by now I should be helping as a part time carer for a friend of mines brother (my friends younger brother I get on really well with him) and have had the CRB (I think they call it a CBS or something now), I have filled out all of the forms for this ages ago (This apparently would be paid which is also a plus), I understand that it takes some time for it to come through, but having been told that since then something has been dropped into my old house (I moved 2-3 months ago) I then followed this up only to have no response from his mum (The one who is dealing with some of this paperwork) and minimal response from him (My friend).
I just feel really annoyed right now, do I seriously have to chase after and followup things like this for anything to come to pass?, it feels like everything that I do isn't enough because I'm almost expected to do other peoples work too (In the case of being a part time carer at least).
I mean its not that I'm unable to, hell I've already done that with my A2 ICT in which my teacher completely abandoned me leaving me to finish about 2/3 of the work alone with a marking criteria and some exemplar work (It may sound like exaggeration but I honestly did have better attendance than my own teacher for a subject).
I haven't quite figured out if this is more feeling isolated and or feeling like even now I have to put work in for things as seemingly mediocre as this.
I'm going to stop writing now, I've gone through this more times than I can count just to see if this makes any sense.