I had a relationship over 13yr and had four kids.. And every thing was good and after we had our kids .. Every thing went turn up side down.. our relationship wet hell.. Bf thinking about his friend and having fun out and taking drug and love his mummy more important me and ma kids. We never go out have fun. And I hate n law control me and she boss everything. And they take my fwo kids off me... And how I suppose let go ma pain feeling and I hate kids father and I still love him and pain still there ... I'm angry, want take drug try move on..