I started a new job about a month ago and I've tried to have a positive view on things but I feel like I just keep messing things up there and can't do anything right. Im trying my hardest but just keep doing things wrong. As a result of this my depressions getting worse again (its been ok as it can be recently) and ending up in hospital over the weekend due to a panic attack. Ive never had a panic attack before and its put me in even more of downward spiral as I feel this is sign things are getting worse. I'm trying not self harm but not cutting is driving me insane.