woke up in terror, forgot to lock up the chickens last night - they will all be dead .... or horribly injured by fox .... i will be blamed by (soon to be ex) husband who is away and told me not to forget .... stop you horrid words going around in my head .... just another thing that is my fault. get up go check - they are all out in the garden making most of bright early morning, stupid woman, get some sleep - cant ....
overwhelming feeling of dread started from chicken situation and can stop mind rollercoasting into day, practice mindfullness meditation to try and calm the inner voice, please calm down i cant bear the noise.
need to talk to someone - phoned mum .... chemo not going well - cant bear thought of life without her, please dont stop treatment mum - i need you, sorry i am so selfish - its your life/choice
It will pass, try and get daughter out of bed, we need to go food shopping, she will come with me and chatter and i wont be overwhelmed by voices, keep calm
sorry everyone - just need to get this off my chest, get through today and tomorrow will be brighter