Yesterday I wrote a long question and hit the wrong button and lost the lot I was furious ..Sometimes I find this site very helpful to off load but there are days I find my self judging people .. I don't mean too , I think its hard because there are different levels of depression , I consider mine servere ..
Often people will say go out and take up painting or have a fish super to treat yourself .. what do you do when you cnt do those things ..?? When you are so sick of your life all you do in lie on the bed with thoughts of killing yourself ..
Pills have failed me CBT is a waste of time . I once went to A&E I said I wanted to die .. they sent me home with in the hour and told me to see my GP
I don't feel I have a place in this world . no family no friends .. life goes on around me and I just sit and watch it ..I find myself being jealous of people on tv people passing my window .. I have nothing and no one that matters to me .. I have a daughter but she doesn't invite me into her life , tbh I don't blame her , I am miserable and sad constantly .. where do I go now what do I do .. I am so sick and tired of this grim existence ..
People reply often we are what we chose to be , I don't believe that , we need to make more effort , when this evil illness grips you hard what do you do?
Make an effort go on a bus ride ,,, that's what people say to me .. what do you do when you cannt ?
I don't want to be diagnosed with a life threatening illness bt if I died tomorrow I wouldn't care , no one would mourne me I have lived for 49 years and done nothing productive .. I hate my life I hate living alone.. I just feel like a nothing and a nobody ...
what do I do now ....