I hate my life , I am tired of living with this god aweful illness . I have tried pills , counselling etc but finally arrived at the conclusion this is how it is ..I live alone and hate it , I have no contact with my family , Mum died 18 months ago and I miss her everyday. Gps always say you have to try ,, I hate that reply ,, do they think we don't ..
I have driven away friends I am wallowing in self pity I know but I can not climb out of it .. I just feel like I am waiting for death , I don't live I exist and its pathetic ..