Was just wondering if anyone gets any driving anxiety? I'm a new motorbike rider, I've never driven on the road in my 20 years and I understand it would be extremely stressful for myself being a learner and some nasty drivers that don't make it easy learning.
But I keep having this extreme anxiety attacks which tenses me up, I don't know if there are any motorcyclists on here, but tensing up makes it harder to drive. I've managed to pass my CBT (Compulsory Basic Training) on a 50cc scooter, I have a geared 125cc kymco pulsar and on a straight round even in a controlled environment my teachers and mentors have given me such praise that it lifts my mood. They'd be no point in them lying to me or just saying it to boast my confidence as that'd just end up being more dangerous. They say I do everything perfectly like a natural in those types of environments (which was on a geared bike), but I couldn't pass the road safety because of my anxiety, so they let me pass on a scooter - saying I'd very easily and naturally transfer my confidence onto my geared bike.
The boyfriend has taken me out and such, but it just keeps happening. Everything is perfect when I'm not going anywhere but as soon as I start applying the gears and road and everything it all just goes tits up, bringing my confidence down so fast and hard, I tense up, get really teary and find it difficult to catch my breath. Obviously I can't drive like this, I just keep messing up when it comes to the road. My boyfriend says it's practice which is fine but I'm finding it difficult to get it all under control. I feel like everything is moving so fast that I just can never catch up.
Guess, what I'm asking is if anyone has dealt with it and how? I'm allowed to go on the road and I know that tomorrow I should try again but I'm so filled with anxiety I'm already shaking even though it's tomorrow another thing is this will be the first time on the road on my own. The boyfriend (who lives in Plymouth) was up for the weekend and I thought I'd have done better then what I have done, it was like I hadn't even passed my CBT at all. Now I'm even more afraid because he's gone back to Plymouth and I can't just wait around until he comes back up either - it'd be too long.
Sorry for the long post guess I'm just stressing x