I'm hurt so to the extent that life around me looks like sick tired waste of living life no hope at all.
I just broke up with my gal actually it wasn't the break up a compromise for both to end it!! I wasn't sure of marriage and scared to the fact that how do people react if we get married or thier family when she tells she is in love as they had blind faith tat their daughter won't do any such things just to not hurt dem she never told at home as they wre orthodox jew.. now a guy approched her family who is her colleague knowing dat she is in a realtionship with me to keep d family happy she got hooked wid him and d marriage is on cards she is not happy neither i'm.
But I can't change or do anything now and accept any other gal in my life as I live in a grief of spoiling her life by giving fake assurance I miss those moments and love her like hell but now the words and feelings just remain with me.. I'm not in touch with her I dont want to spoil her new life he is good guy he is helping her to come out of the bad stint by showering her so much love but she has never moved still to be with him so do I?? I wonder will I regret all my life for losing her and can love happen twice I dono wats in d store called life but at the moment I'm hating everything I dont eat food I dont sleep I wake up in d middle of night I wish to end myself for my deeds it haunts me every second did I spoil and exploit her as she regrets now so do I.. but we were madly in love and never thought we were doing wrong.
God help me I can't take d pain of losing and hurting someone she may sleep wid him physically but her soul and mind is not d same as it was wid me.. I can't marry any gal either I dnt hav enough strength to battle out for one more realtionship. . Im sorry forgive me