Hi everyone, this is my first post so I hope I get a reply! Basically, for the last 12 months or so I've been severely down. It all started when my mother became severely depressed and I felt like I had lost her, and still do. Growing up I lost a lot of family, my father left and I don't have many friends. I'm not one for feeling sorry for myself but lately I find myself constantly comparing myself to other people and wondering why I don't have a family like they do or friends like they do. I constantly worry about what people think of me and I've convinced myself that nobody would ever WANT to be friends with me because everyone in my life has left at some point. I cry every day and I dread the following day because I know that I'm going to wake up and just have the same horrible feeling all over again. I don't actually feel like I'm living but I feel like I'm just surviving. I actually dislike myself very much and so why would anybody else like me? I'm constantly down and moody and the only time I am not is if I have had a lot of alcohol. Lately I've found painkillers help but only for a couple of hours. I'm unsure whether to go to my doctor? Will antidepressants help? I'm sick of constantly feeling worthless. I would love some advice xx
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