I can see that some of you have responded to my last post about my daughter, but my laptop won't show me the responses for some reason?
Anyway, I was wondering whether any of you have experiences of the above? Or know of the symptoms?
I'm worried I have this. Some days (today included) I'm gifted with a 'good day', where I'm still very tired/lacking enthusiasm/focus etc. but have a great degree of insight into my own mental health. But I do get some periods of time where I go into a 'crazy' mood. I destroy my possessions, trash the house, don't take my medication because I don't trust what's in it, and when I have attempted suicide in the past I have heard a voice which sounded like a man and woman combined saying 'more' as I took each tablet. Obviously, right now I'm happy to discuss the symptoms online fairly anonymously. But when I see my new psychiatrist next week for the first time I probably wouldn't tell them. I've not taken any medication for about 14 days now (SSRI's). I haven't really felt any different.
My days are really varying. One day I won't get out of bed and barely eat. The next day I'll tidy the house, do food shopping, eat excessively, do at least a small amount of my work for my social work masters (which I'm usually not able to do at all). The next day may be fairly similar, maybe with not as much vigour. And then I might have a day where I'm in bed again all day. It's completely random, with no obvious pattern.
While I don't hear 'voices' all the time, I'm always aware of 'something' pushing me, and I'm really aware of everyone, like I think they're watching me or judging me, or know something about me.
Thanks everyone, hopefully I'll be able to see these responses if I get any!