Hi folks, I wanted to post an update and see what people think. I had my welfare meeting with my manager. I feel like it was a 'how can we get rid of you' disguised as support. He was talking about paying me off or being declared unfit for the job. I've been off for a month! I have had sickness previously but not for 18 months. There is a new part of my job which I find very stressful. There is no option to do anything different. Into the mix is the real possibility of my girlfriend leaving me as she finally loses any hope in our relationship.
I'm left feeling very depressed and anxious. I'm off my food, not interested in anything and feel tired constantly. My shoulders are really tense and my headaches are really bad. On a positive note I have slept OK for the last 2 nights. First time in a month!
I am doing mindfulness everyday, trying to mentally challenge my anxieties seeing therapist soon, but as I've said before, finding it so difficult. I:be dealtnwith difficulty in the past, but not so much at once. I plan to make an appt with CAB and am going to see another GP in my practice soon. My problem is that I feel so depleted energy wise. I'm on 40mg citalopram and have been for a long time. I'm wondering if I should ask about switching to a different antidepressant? Or try beta-blockers? I feel I need something so I can try to tackle what's ahead. Any thoughts or comments would be appreciated. Sorry if I've repeated info again from previous posts.