drank way too much last 24hrs. head buzzin with so many memories. not sure if talkin bout my son was such a good idea. so many peripheal memories dragged in. Jim bein buried with him 14 months later n the funeral director sayin that Jacob had been buried wrong so he wudnt b disturbed wen they reopned his grave. the hole was so deep. i remember wandering if it was so i'd fit too. then about 9 months after that bein told by the lady in the garage i needed to go check the grave, it had bin disturbed. i'd bin away for a week, litter pickin at glastonbury. there was a hole anglin down towards Jacobs restin place. for some reason, he wasnt buried very deeply, i think thats why Jims grave looked so deep. i swear i cud see his coffin. the cemetery keeper was sceptical wen i rang n told him it looked vandalised, but he had a different manner wen he rang back. i knew he wasnt sure it was an animal.
i'm sorry. mite just delete this. funny, wen i'm drunk n look a total tit, i dont mind goin on fb n showin myself up. yes i cringe the next day, but i leave it up there, hopin the shame will make me stop. its certainly cut rite down. but goin on there n talkin like this wud b a far bigger humiliation.
forgive me, gotta post this. i need help