I`m suffering with depression, was early stages a couple of years ago, due to a car accident, not to serious though, so has built up over the time, I had a partner of 2 years and i was very much in love with him, still am. But as things went on between some family members has caused things to go from bad to worse. My partner and i just stayed as friends and was enjoying our time together. But now my partner is now my ex and it has broke my heart, he said " he cannot live where people are being so controlling over me and trying to run my life for me saying who i can see and cant. They think that he is to blame for all this. But i am to blame as well. Now my ex is with someone but still wants me in his life, I have tried so hard to get him out my life that i was getting addicted to pain killers ( Tramadol ) to help with the pain, My ex says he doesnt love me but wont let me walk away. All this and my family dont understand why i just cry sometimes and trying to explain i am depressed. My daughter told me to get over it when we was arguing over the way i am. I dont no which way to turn or who to go to, At the minuet i dont want to self arm or kill myself, i just want it to stop hurting me like it is. I have no one to talk and just finding every day so hard to deal with, all i want to so is sleep.