Nothing ever seems to go right lately. Just want a normal week without anything disasterous happening. My anxiety levels are really high even though been swimming every morning and taking my PRN. Am trying to be strong and hold things together but feel angry and upset my best friend had an accident and is in HDU. Within space of 6 weeks my husband fractured his skull and now my best friend also really poorly. No its not their fault but I can't seem to get on top of things and am so scared I'll slip back and let them down. Its an awful feeling when poorly people are more concerned about how things are affecting you and worrying that your not okay. And of course I say I am but I'm not. No I have rambled on a bit but and I have been trying and doing what my CPN says but I feel so tired of it all and would really like to shut my eyes and that be it. Which of course is a horrid thing to say cos its very selfish to want to end my pain when my loved ones are hurting.