Well earlier on today i realised my bestest friend had not invited me to her 1 year old sons bday party. i think its been on my mind but i just assumed it was just family and thats why i hadnt been invited. However I come to learn that her other friends were going!
so i messaged her to say i was gutted i hadnt been invited and she said she had thought 'long and hard' about whether to invite me as she thought it might be a bit awkward because of what happened at leeds fest. I said havnt we all got past this by now?? and ive been a big part of that little boys life so i was hurt i wasnt going to be there.
She said pretty much the same thing and that she doesnt want this ruining her day when its not her fault and i get to see him tomorrow.
i should probs explain that at leeds fest she didnt like it that her boyfriend put me on his shoulders and the fact he messaged me and we was having a bit of a chat on facebook afterwards. i must make it clear i did not put anything flirty to him but her boyfriend did say some jokey (poss inapropriate) comments which i did not take on. we was talking about stupid things. she seen i had messaged him back and then proceeded to wait till he went in the shower to check his phone and read our messages.
She then told me she never wanted to speak to me again and we had ripped their family apart and that we was horrible. then she said she can never trust me or him again. she seemed to think we was being secretive...he said 'dont tell her' and i never once said i wouldnt. she didnt even give me a chance but how childish would that be if i was like 'awwww your boyfriend has been messaging me'. there was nothing even to tell. i was just pleased me and him were getting on because ive always thought he hated me and i kind of think shes made me think that way.
what she expected would happen at a one year olds party is beyond me. ive assured her i dont fancy him at all and would never do anything like that.
she still said she cant trust us together.
Me not being invited to this has led me to one conclusion....i dont think we can be friends any more.
this is just the start. Im not going to be invited to birthdays, any parties or nights out....heck im not even allowed near her house now.
i havent even done anything wrong but yet ive been pushed out to one side. im so upset im not there...ive spent more time with her and her boy than any of her mates. I went round everyweek and helped her out. he recognised me, he laughed at me. ive never been good with kids but this was different, i really cared for that little boy.
she has no reason not to trust her boyfriend....shes the one thats cheated on him and with his mates too!!! ive been there for her, put up with her being horrible to me on nights out and i just cannot believe shes left me out of such a big occassion.
she didnt even tell me or discuss it with me...she just asked me before if i wanted some bday cake saving and then i clocked on...aparently its enough that I get to see him tomorrow...thats not the point at all.
I feel hurt by this and i dont think i can let it go...
what do you think?