I feel like I'm getting sucked right back down again into the darkness, after having a few weeks of feeling
'ok' ( with the odd down-day mixed in)..
I seem to be hell-bent on self-destruction, I'm so tired, I don't want to eat, go out, even move..
I just wanna sleep, death would be better, but as I've explained before, I couldn't live with myself for doing that to
Not that I'd have to, coz I'd be dead, but they would, and I just can't bring myself to put them through that hell.
When's it gonna end.. I just wanna be 'ok', I'm not even asking for happiness or anything more than just 'ok'
and not be in spiritual and emotional pain all the time.
Still loving the thought of hibernating, why couldn't I have been born a bear? Mum? Eh?
Wishing you all a good a day as your moods and states of minds allow,
Love, Holly Xx